Unlike Me

I have always worn pants. My legs are pasty white and somewhat hairy. Male legs. I have defined calves and strong thigh muscles. I like to run and am used to standing on my tiptoes because I am not a big guy. 

However, my male pain is getting worse and also, it gets so hot in here in the daytime. Not because it is hot outside, because of the Sun's heat. 

I am not particularly shy about my body. Other than my belly but that isn't so bad. 

I wear better underwear. Right now Terramar, but most often, MeUndies or C-IN2. I like my male parts secure, not loose. My testicles hurt if they are touched or squished like holding the legs together or in jeans. 

I wear Lee jeans only when I go somewhere. I wear sweat pants all other times but not this season. I will stick in a shirt and my underwear. I only wear briefs. Always have and always will. 

I had C-IN2 Core briefs on yesterday. I was asleep but awoke because I had to pee. I was excited and that hurts when my male parts are secured. 

This isn't sexual stimulation but a normal male process when he is sleeping. If you have a male companion, you can check to see if it happens to him. He isn't healthy if it doesn't. 

Sexual stimulation is a problem right now. The Zoloft I take makes it incredibly hard to finish. I get stimulated and cannot relieve it. Makes me super angry. 

I suppose that would be good if I had a girlfriend but I do not. 

I am not going outside unless I have to. That makes it hard to meet a new female friend. That is, if my anxiety feathers aren't ruffled by her attention. 

The Zoloft has helped blunt the panic reflex but seems to have strengthened my avoidance behavior. I was at the lavandiera a few days ago and when I was folding my pants, I felt a deep panic, which I do not understand. No one was around and I was busy. 

I feel mushy-brained because of the side-effects of my medicine. I get confused sometimes and the sex thing. Cannot concentrate. 

It is unlike me not to wear pants but it is getting to where it doesn't matter. So you can see more of me, so what? I am male, I have male parts. 

I wish I wasn't but that is well-established here. 

MeUndies

I have been a subscriber of MeUndies for more than a year. It abruptly ended a few weeks ago when the start-up company changed its subscription plan to ? I still don't know what changed or how much it costs.

Does it still cost $16? I mean, I can get C-IN2 Core Profile briefs (My favorite underwear) for $16 as well.

I want to help small businesses when possible. So what if it is in California and not Texas? If the product is good, keep it going.

I can't describe it better than showing you a picture. It is feeling and I don't want to get too tmi here.

I will stay with MeUndies if it does not price itself out of my budget, which is my fear.

I have black, purple, yellow, patterns, and 'love-me' briefs. I wear the black most often. Depends on color matching in my clothes.

Here is the picture.

If I lost weight, I know I would look better. I am not fat but this belly.....

Underwear Trouble

Eventually, I will overcome the resistance to taking a picture of me with my MeUndies on but not today. Not that I want to show off my ant bites.

As it fits, the fabric is a little different. From a plant source, it feels soft and stretchy. Normally, underwear is made from cottony material that doesn't feel like this.

I wear briefs only. That is a personal preference. I have had a subscription with MeUndies for almost a full year.

They do ride up sometimes. In some pairs, not all, my scrotal skin is exposed. They say 'wear a bigger pair', but I tried that and it is like my genitals are not even secured.

The best thing about MeUndies briefs are that you literally cannot feel them when you have them on. This can be an issue if someone or something touches your privates, it is like not a barrier of fabric like say a pair of C-IN2 briefs are. Kinda like that barrier of fabric.

I have a lot of underwear. I am always searching for that perfect pair. If MeUndies, not made anywhere in this hemisphere, was cut like C-IN2 briefs, they would be perfect.

What is the problem? So I had a defective product. I told them and they issued me a credit, typical biz. Then they send me the wrong color, a tealish color that matches nothing in my wardrobe. You know how important color matching is to me.

Now what? Do I send them back? Don't worry, I didn't wear them, I don't want them. If so, I will have to wait until I can afford postage in about 2 weeks.

This really bothers me. I am already feeling quasi-suicidal today, here by myself, where anxiety is power boosted.

I am not shy like that. I will post a picture of me with MeUndies on. If you don't like it, what did you come here for?

Color Matching

I have stopped posting about underwear because those posts seem unpopular but this is one last one. Okay.

I color match. That means my underwear matches the shirt. This is not always possible, I mean, do you have underwear of the colors you wear? I primarily wear gray, purple or black.

I have been told by some that this is weird. Why match colors? It just seems important to me. If I was a girl, my bra would have to match panties, no exception. This is true for me now. I don't wear panties, well, most of the time I don't.

This picture is of my red shirt day. I used to never wear red but since I like red against my white skin, short of slathering paint on it or cutting myself and smearing blood on it, I just will wear a red shirt.

Now my underwear in this picture are MeUndies male briefs, medium, allegedly red but really?

Underwear 5

I have mentioned that I have been trying different kinds of underwear to find the right pair. I am trying all things. There are some I do not like, the ones that make my peena protrude, others that are see through.

I found a pair that I literally cannot feel. My genitals are secure, no real protruding. I like compression.

I have fought with myself about posting an underwear picture. I decided to do it.
 
You can't see anything or else I wouldn't post it.

Sadly, these briefs are not meant for male wear. Male underwear should be like this, not like the ones like Cocksox and others.

My VS underwear.

Brutal Cold

As I write this, it is 19 degrees F outside. That's -7 C to those who use the Celsius scale.

I have a heater so I am not bitching about being cold. Only my feet are. When I go to sleep and under my several blankets, they eventually warm up.

I have to forgo my shower today as a pipe has burst under the house. The water is shut off. This will become an issue if it is not fixed today.

I am upset by this cold. Why did this happen? Is it a sign of things to come? Extremes in both winter and summer? It gets hotter than fuck here in the summer. Hot is tolerable. Cold is never tolerable. Cold hurts and numbs. It saps energy and provokes involuntary things like gooseflesh and shivering.

Given that shivering and trembling are nothing new to me, I don't like it. I have anxiety trembling when I go somewhere.

I don't know. I would like to post an underwear picture, I found a pair that I love. Even if it was not intended for male wear. Speaking of male underwear, there is a center seam in most briefs that leaves an impressed area on my peena. I don't like that. These VS underwear don't have that.

I don't know about TOS issues with an underwear picture. This is not an exclusively adult blog, though I talk about adult things like sexuality, attraction, love, anxiety disorder, etc....

Given that I do not know who reads my blog, especially in Malaysia, I don't know. Who would really be interested in my life?

Why?

What's Comfortable?

Okay, I said I wouldn't talk about underwear anymore but I have this slightly embarrassing admission. I read on a website that it is okay for a guy to wear panties. I am not about to wear frilly feminine looking panties in pink or red or pastel colors.

So I ordered a pair from VS. What's VS? You can figure it out. A black pair, high cut, almost identical to the Mansilk low cut brief. Almost identical? Well, given that the Mansilk is made of silk, that is different but the VS is like flex blend. I don't know what really. I have worn the VS all day and I like it.

Some underwear make you poke out, the 'enhancement' pouch. What the F is that? I don't need to advertise the fact that I have a peeny. I like it restrained, discreet.

I had an incident when I was a young teenager in school that I have never forgotten. Given that at my age, it is not so easy to get excited just like that, I swore that I wouldn't let it show ever again.

It took me this many years to try something new. So what? I wear panties. Not all of the time, nor is it quite compatible with my laundry cycle.

I have black VS and Felina panties, size 5. They look and are generally the same as the male version of that kind of brief. I have Mansilk and C-IN2 briefs like that.

Also, that kind of brief is cheaper than the male version. It takes some getting used to. I wouldn't try it if my genitals were any bigger. I am a little above average as it is.

Okay, no more talk about underwear. For real. I just talk about what is comfortable. I am not the only guy who has tried this, so don't judge.

Underwear 3

I have been trying different underwear because some of it hurts my prostate pain.

I discovered this one online store, Brief Tales, which offers and says guys should wear panties. They sent me some in a bonus pack and I tried them. Oh, should I admit that I enjoyed it?

Don't think for a moment that this feminizes me because I wore panties. It felt better than the heavy cotton fabric of normal briefs. The C-IN2 Core briefs are still my favorite. They are made of something that is not cotton but some kind of artificial fiber. Whatever, they feel good.

I ordered some more panties, just to see if I can wear them. They don't hurt me and keep my maleness secure unlike male cut briefs. I do not like having an erection to be honest. It is an annoyance.

This is not, repeat, not a sexual thing. I don't understand that whole underwear sex thing myself. It seems ridiculous.

Don't count on a picture of me in panties. They are not very good in hiding the shape of the maleness. I wear male small size briefs, female size 5. If it doesn't hurt, I like it.

I will only wear them during the early part of my laundry cycle. My C-IN2 briefs are black.

This will be the last post on underwear. I'll talk about something later.

Underwear 2

I talk about underwear because I like it. I try different brands of briefs and currently like C-IN2 BaseFlex briefs best right now. I am wearing a white pair of them right now.

I have looked for good underwear for a long time. When I worked at wm, it helped my anxiety unwind if I focused on what feels good.

What feels good? If you read this blog, you know I have chronic non-bacterial prostatitis. It is stress-damaged. Not sick. It can get sick with a bacterial infection if I don't do things like the m-thing occasionally. If it was a sin, why did the urologist tell me to do it more? I can't do it more. It hurts if I do it often.

I like snug fitting briefs. I don't like my maleness, actually, and I like not to be conscious of it. If it is secured in place, and doesn't brush against fabric like wearing boxers would, that is okay with me.

I wear white or gray or black underwear according to my laundry cycle. I am still trying new kinds of briefs. I don't mind buying underwear. I mean, unless you are a much different person from me, you always wear underwear.

What did you come here for? I wonder most about who reads this blog. I talk about things about me that I don't tell anyone in person. Like who needs to know about my like of underwear?

I need to lose some weight and I will look :) in my underwear.

Underwear

I wear briefs. I never was comfortable in anything else. I usually color coordinate with my socks and shirt. I have a pattern to what I wear. I shave once a week, it hurts my face to do it more often. This also resets what I call my laundry cycle.

After I shave, I wear white, white, then gray, darker gray, then black and black. I have a variable dark purple shirt work in the black end of the cycle. I am wearing it now. Yes, I wear purple, not because I am that way, but because I associate it with my mental illness.

I recently bought a bunch of underwear online. You can't get the good stuff at wm, you know. I like C-IN2 the most. It doesn't constrict but does feel secure. I mean, you can see a bulge there, well, yes. I am a boy. Boy, who's 37.

I am not shy about my underwear. I'd post a picture of it but my blog isn't about such pictures. Would you enjoy it if I did?

Is it weird that I color-coordinate? Have a color cycle to my wardrobe? If I was a girl, I'd always match my bra and panties. It is the way I am. I don't feel right wearing black underwear and white socks.

I imagine that doesn't bother most people. They wear whatever. I am just particular about that.

Upset

I don 't usually get upset easy. My med takes this unpleasant aspect of being human and chills it.
But when I cannot find something, it appears. I have torn apart my room looking for a cd and discovered a huge mess that I have to clean up. That is upsetting too.

I am upset that I was so intent on finding this cd, that I remained in my underwear after my night shower and I still am. I am wearing black Hanes boxer briefs and my peeny protrudes from them. That is another upsetting thing. If I am doomed to live a sexless existence, why the hell do I have one?

I did not find that cd and I feel icky inside from the upset. I'll chill.

I kinda like me in underwear. My peeny is nothing to be ashamed of. My testicles are like any other, I reckon since there isn't much variation in them among males. I have never read that there is. I despise even looking at other males but I learn more to know more about myself.

I am listening to Deep Forest III Comparsa, a cd that was welcome tropicality on cold winter nights 10 years ago when I drove to work overnight.

I do not particularly like this laptop I'm using. I miss my regular pc but it may take days yet for repair. Its power supply has failed, the second such in one year of owning it. That upsets me too.

I guess it is just the way things are.

My life won't be sexless. Jen understands this is inevitable. I will help her appreciate it better.

Arthelius was quite the sex man when he wasn't a ghost. Now, though, his spectral peeny can't penetrate beyond his robes. I wonder if it will be the same for me when I am a ghost.

Underwear :)

During this unhappy Christmas holiday, in which I have been sick, my right ear stopped up (clearing now with suphedrine) and I am taking a new antibiotic, Something else unpleasant happened.

My Directv service is a sub-service to my mom's directv service. Yes, I live with my mom and dad. My dad is disabled and I do not go a day without seeing or helping him no matter how strong willed and unpleasant he can be. Anyhow, my mom somehow ran up the bill by ordeing some new remotes or something and our boxes were disconnected. This will persist until January.

When a directv is 'turned off' apparently, some channels are not blocked. These include the Directv info channels, government channels like C-Span and NASA TV, and yay, informercial channels.

I do not know why I like infomercials. I watch them when the box is unblocked but not as much as now. I think they are funny (like the infamous Magic Bullet 'party' infomercial). Isn't it funny that Mr T is doing one for the Flavor Wave oven? "I pity the fool...." More so on you, dude.

Some of these infomercial channels have shows like The Knife Show, which is funny in its own way, and the shocking and interesting Shop Erotic. I do not watch coin shows or auctions or gem sales. I do like the Jewelry Channel which helps me imagine the jewelry my characters wear in my stories. They can also be the focus of a story.

Some informericals are about squishing a woman's body in a bamboo fiber corset to make her seem less lumpy and (eww) saggy. They look hideous in their underwear. Imagine being a guy, attracted to her in this corset, not knowing that she looks like a deflated blimp when naked. The time would come when they are in a sexual situation, and she pulls it off (with effort). The guy takes one look at the saggy folds of hide and his erection would retract faster than a tape measure does.

I can't say every guy would find that repellent but I would. I am truly blessed to have a girlfriend that is fit and so very supple. That is not why I love her but it doesn't hurt.

Now let me tell you about me. I'd post a pic of me in my underwear if it wouldn't ruffle the prudish feathers of Blogger or Google. I may have a belly, not as bad as people seem to think, but otherwise, I am a cute guy.

I look good in underwear. I say this because I have seen other guys in all sorts of underwear in commercials or advertisements or on the package and they focus too much on the muscly body and hiding the peeny.

I look good because my muscles are average, my peeny is never hidden in clever light or draping effects, and my butt (my favorite part of me other than my eyes) is well represtented.

I like to wear briefs though there are times when I wear boxer briefs or trunks when I feel uncomfortable down there. I like them to fit just right.

I am not ashamed of my peeny, even when it is fully retracted because of cold or anxiety. It hides its potential then, becoming something more when excited. I am growing not to like having an erection, truthfully. It seems that it just doesn't matter. I must keep it in shape for Jen when our time comes.

I wear Hanes almost exclusively though the ideal underwear is cotton stretch by Merona from Target. I am not terribly impressed by name brand underwear.

I have a lot of it because I am searching for the perfect pair eludes me as yet.

What is perfect? Fit, look, color, material, feel. I hope Jen learns this so she can help me. Her opinion matters much to me. Satisfying her is my goal. She loves me more when I do sothing meaningful. I have no doubt that she loves me even when I upset her, which is never intentional.

Her underwear, I've never seen it, but I have felt it by touch, is soft and silky. I can't wait to see it but patience is the character flaw in me that keeps me with her.

I cant hug or kiss her because I'm sick. I do not want to make her sick.

But now with more powerful medicines, I will be able to hug her, which is a sensual moment for us.

Underwear is underrated. if you don't look good in yours, what's the point? Comfort and beauty go hand in hand, imo.

I will post a pic of my favorite underwear in a later post.

Ha ha.

I write what I'm thinking about. Helps keep my mind off how bad I feel.

A ghost needs not wear underwear. Arthelius gets by with just a spectral robe. Wouldn't that be great? Too bad reality bites there.