Angry Peeny

Why is it angry? When I woke up this morning, it was in its excited state, as is normal when a guy wakes up. Though nocturnal erections are involuntary, some kind of nervous system calibration or something, it can be inconvenient. Like when one has to pee. That was common when I was a teenager.

It is angry because this morning, I guess it was adjusted wrong. You see, the first nocturnal erection, at least in my case, comes when sleep begins. If wearing briefs, as I feel more comfortable in, it can be constricted. If you have ever came into contact with an erect peeny, you know the thing is rock solid. It will bend if in the normal 'down' position, yet continues to stiffen. This can cause it to bend very uncomfortably.

I usually always pull my peeny up before going to sleep but I don't remember doing that last night. It was constricted all night. When I woke up, there were impressions in the glans of my peeny from the stitching on the Hanes white briefs I wore last night. It was sore and it was iffy to pee and then in my morning shower it felt sore.

The feeling faded in the 20 minutes I spent naked this morning. KMA if you think that is bad or pervy of me. It is not.

My peeny never really recovered from the day last August when a burly male nurse cracked jokes as he inserted a camera probe into my peeny, which went up the urethra to the bladder.

I don't think it is physically changed other than maybe a slightly more open urethra and exit (the hole where urine/semen comes out).

My peeny looks fine now. It should, it got a dose of Cetaphil and Aveeno body wash. It is a good thing. I have a fine peeny. It isn't sick or injured, and is as good as it was when I was a teenager.

It is angry because the last three attempts at the m-thing have failed. that is brain's fault as it gets distracted. I will try in the morning to see if that can be remedied.

It is also angry because it waits for Jen. It is soooo ready for her.

Know this, peeny doesn't have a mind of its own. It is an appendage, no more a thinking thing than a hand or foot. Don't believe any guy that says he thinks with his. My peeny is better than a lot of them. Mine is circumcised. It is of fine proportion and length. It is pinkish and matches the color of my skin. Pasty? Not quite.

Why did I write about this? TMI? No, I am showing that I am not ashamed of my body. I am comfortable discussing this rather overrated part of a male body. If we did not make a big deal over it, then it would not be such a hang up.

I will consider entering into a peeny contest online when one becomes available.

Arthelius and I are the same person/Force spirit. We have identical parts. Why was he loved so and continues to be despite the spectral nature of his peeny?

My vacation starts today. 6 days away from wm. See if I set foot anywhere near it.

I should feel a lot better in a couple of days. Peeny will relax and just retract. It make look small when so but it isn't.

It actually feels better like that. I am most comfortable when it is at that mid stage between retracted and the onset of an erection.

If we cannot write about ourselves, what is the point of a weblog? Don't read it if it bothers you.

Thanks to those that do.

Tormential

I don't know why but bad things keep happening. now my new pc monitor has failed. I am yet again using this laptop I do not like that much. WTF bother? I spent $70 I could not afford to get a new power supply for my pc. It works now but doesn't mean f*ck-all if it doesn't have a monitor.

I can't access my stories, or play Spore, or any of the other things not in the laptop. Its feeble memory would not hold all of them.

I should not curse it, it is how I can go on the web and do other things, like the porn I watch on my computers. I have several DVD's usually starring Asian girls or Chloe Jones, who is disturbing to me because she is dead now.

I watch it only to make the m-thing easier. The point of the m-thing is to get done ASAP. I am usually very tired at night when I do it.

What else is this? I am being whored around different departments of the wm I work in, doing things not in my job description. I spent many months and did some dumb things to learn the GC, why am I usually pulled from it when nobody else is?

My celexa-clone is not working right. I am feeling anxiety again when I shouldn't and its dark side is emerging, the suicidal risk of SSRI's.

Lack of sex is hurting me more than ever. I am growing to believe that waiting for Jen is a terrible mistake. I might be waiting until the next ice age.

I don't know how I do it. There is a mucus party in my chest, throat and nose. It won't go away.

My dry skin is killing me.

Grrrrr! Why couldn't I trade places with Arthelius? At least he gets respect if only because he can kick ass with the Force. I can do nothing of the kind. Why does this happen?

I did not start this blog to complain. However, it evolved into that way and I can only apologize. Stupid, me.

Upset

I don 't usually get upset easy. My med takes this unpleasant aspect of being human and chills it.
But when I cannot find something, it appears. I have torn apart my room looking for a cd and discovered a huge mess that I have to clean up. That is upsetting too.

I am upset that I was so intent on finding this cd, that I remained in my underwear after my night shower and I still am. I am wearing black Hanes boxer briefs and my peeny protrudes from them. That is another upsetting thing. If I am doomed to live a sexless existence, why the hell do I have one?

I did not find that cd and I feel icky inside from the upset. I'll chill.

I kinda like me in underwear. My peeny is nothing to be ashamed of. My testicles are like any other, I reckon since there isn't much variation in them among males. I have never read that there is. I despise even looking at other males but I learn more to know more about myself.

I am listening to Deep Forest III Comparsa, a cd that was welcome tropicality on cold winter nights 10 years ago when I drove to work overnight.

I do not particularly like this laptop I'm using. I miss my regular pc but it may take days yet for repair. Its power supply has failed, the second such in one year of owning it. That upsets me too.

I guess it is just the way things are.

My life won't be sexless. Jen understands this is inevitable. I will help her appreciate it better.

Arthelius was quite the sex man when he wasn't a ghost. Now, though, his spectral peeny can't penetrate beyond his robes. I wonder if it will be the same for me when I am a ghost.

Rare Lucky

I did the m-thing too early today and maybe that wasn't a good idea. I feel a little iffy down there. No matter, it was fun and felt good.

I had a typical wednesday, but I went into a used bookstore in CC to see if I could find something to improve my writing.

Instead, I found something I have searched for since Y2K.

'The Man-Kzin Wars' is a series of books, an anthology of humanity's war with the cat-like Kzin. I have all of them except the fourth one. I could not find it on the web or in any bookstore between here and Austin. I assumed it was out of print and I would never find it.

Lo and behold, I found it in this bookstore! Oh gosh, I'm happy about that. I like the series for its sharp writing and memorable characters. It is funny to read about Chuut-Ritt knowing that in the future, his own kits attack and eat him.

I am very glad about this.

Sad Day

I took this picture with the Acer Crystal Eye embedded in my laptop. I thought I may look icky but you decide.

My cat, General Kator, is dead. He lays on an unused dirt road some distance from my house. He was not run over or looks obviously injured. He was well fed and loved. I am very upset over this. I do not know why he is dead and maybe I should look to not leaving my cats outside. Now I just have Hungry and I will ensure he doesn't end up the same way.

I will be sad for some time. Why did this happen?

I realize that he was just a cat, and cats do get into things they shouldn't. I should have had him neutered like Jen told me to. Maybe he would have stayed closer to home like Hungry does.

I have allergies or something. I keep sneezing and producing a fair amount of icky mucus.

I'm just sad. A hug from my dear one would help a lot. Only she is in the city of the cesspit and I am here in the rural wasteland. That makes me sad too.

Cat (girl)

There is a Black girl who works in customer service in my store. In fact, there are severeal but this one stands out in particular.

Uninhibited, friendly, very cheerful, Cat (short for Cata-something) is maybe a 7 on my 10-scale of feminine beauty. (FYI, my dear one rates a 9.3)

I am not particularly attracted to Black girls. Some are exceptionally beautiful. A great many are unattractive in a fat way, in an ugly way, or in a personality way. This is by no means restricted to their ethnicity.

I like Cat. I think she is cool but mind you, she is African-American and all that entails.

She likes to tease me, by showing herself or rubbing on me. She is going to embarrass me one of these days. If she wants to play poke the kitty, I'd take the advice of Arthelius and do it.

Because Cat is a girl, woman, whatever, and a comely one.

I would never consciously betray my dear one so don't worry. I will stay away from Cat.

Because Arthelius says: 'Better to be with one than have many with trouble as your gift.'

Whatever. Like a ghost would be so affected.

Errr.... Same Old...

I returned to the GC today, and darned if it did not change. I can't find anything and have additional live plant duties. I don't know fuck all about repotting plants, thank you.


It'll calm down. It always does on the weekend.

I oughta mention that Dr. L prescribed me cardura, which is making me feel like a zombie hit by a train. I notice that my pelvic pain is lessened although the m-thing I did about an hour ago may undo that. It seems that when my prostate is actually used, it hurts more.

I have a vacation coming up in a few weeks. a blessed time to be sure.

I feel that increased understanding is helping my relationship with my gf. Of course, I love her. My dear one, Jen.