Something That Really Bothers Me

You may or may not know that astronomy is my first and deepest love. I know a lot about it and it is my primary interest.

That being said, an ordinary space rock would not be such a concern unless it was heading to collide with the earth, which is not liable in my lifetime. 

The fact that scientists cannot identify this object, A/2017 U1 bothers me a lot but that is just being careful. 

What bothers me is the path this alleged space rock is taking, exactly the path you'd use to check out a planet from afar. Could it be something else? Could it be a probe of some kind? Why would it take this path if it was a random space rock from another star system, which may have been traveling for billions of years??

Why do they not know what it is with a certainty? This is ruffling my anxiety feathers something fierce.

See for yourself in this NASA animation.

New Threat - Irma

This is a beast called Irma. It is out in the Atlantic Ocean. It is liable, but not certain, to pass between Cuba and Florida and enter the Gulf of Mexico.


The Gulf of Mexico is very warm. It breeds freakish and destructive storms like Harvey. 

What then? The last thing the US Gulf Coast needs is another destructive tropical cyclone. This is also true of Mexico or Central America, should it go that way. 

I will watch this one closely. I hope it doesn't pose a threat but then, all tropical cyclones are a threat. Especially that one that hit SE Asia recently. 

The Anthropocene. The stupid greedy apes refusing to change. We are reaping what they have sown. 

Hurricane Harvey

I normally appreciate the symmetry of a tropical cyclone. Some pictures of them are beautiful. 

They are usually in far away, tropical areas. 


However, I have watched this storm since it passed over the Yucatan Peninsula. At one point, it looked disorganized and may have not been much than a few thunderstorms. 

But it entered the Gulf of Mexico, which is about as warm as the ocean gets. It intensified, though looked disorganized. 

Now, the past few days, it began to take on the familiar swirly shape of a tropical cyclone and is now striking my homeland. I live 600 or so miles from the coast but even here, we will get prodigious amounts of rain from this.

I cannot stress the amount of rain that will fall on Texas. Some places in the Valley and near Interstate 10 will receive over a year's worth of rain and more, much more. More rain that has fallen in one place than ever. A storm surge of nearly 12 feet keeps flood waters from draining back to the ocean. 

The National Weather Service has said that some places may not be inhabitable for months, if ever. 

The storm now is bearing down on Corpus Christi, a place I have been a few times. I hope nothing is irreparably damaged. 

People mostly obeyed the evacuation orders but some stayed and did so to their peril. 

What makes matters worse, apparently this storm will make it up to the San Antonio area and then after a few days, make its way back into the ocean to strike Eastern Texas and Louisiana.

It is an epic disaster. I cannot believe this is happening. And while our area will receive some rain, nothing like down south. I hope no one is hurt. 

No, I have said before, storms are no light matter. Not even ones hitting where I live. 

I don't know what else to say. Just a huge disaster. 

Life Now

I moved to a better place last December. I do not exactly feel comfortable here but it is eons better than where I was. 

At least I don't have to bathe outside with a water hose now. 

How did that change me? I lost my inhibition to nudity. I learned that if I spend any more time in the sun, I will get skin cancer. I gained many new freckles then. 

I can go to the store but not alone. I feel terrible anxiety when alone, I forget things and walk fast and have panic sweat. 

This has made my male pain worse, like before when I worked at wm. It isn't stress like I felt then, it is stress because of my panic reaction. 

People cause my anxiety reaction. But not always. I went to see Alien Covenant two days ago. I had a severe panic reaction for much of the movie. When it was done, I was shaking so bad, I had to sit down. 

Before the movie, I had to pee. I am pee shy. Normally I don't like going into a public bathroom but I did because it hurts if I hold it and so, there wasn't anyone in there. I was able to go. 

I do not know if I can go to the movies now. I normally avoid horror movies. However, Prometheus left a bunch of uncomfortable questions. 

I can talk to people. But not other guys. They seem to affect my anxiety worse. Stupid fuckers who are only male because of a mutated chromosome. 

Living in proximity to other people adds a new dimension to my anxiety but I avoid most of them. 

I could go on and on about things. But no. I do want to say, though I have terrible anxiety, I don't feel hopeless.

That may change if my benefit is threatened by un-American bastards only interested in coddling the wealthy.