Why I Watch the UFC

I have misandry. I hate other guys. I don't like looking at them, talking to them, or being in the vicinity of one. Animals. To say humans are not animals is a fallacy. Some men prove it on a daily basis. Look in the crime blotter in your local paper. Then there was that case in Florida where that guy ate the face off another. I''m glad the police handled that with professionalism.

It could be why I am interested in transgenderism. Ex-boys who felt that they were never male. You are only male because that one little sperm cell that reached your mother's ovum had a Y-chromosome. It could have easily been one that had an X-chromosome and a male would have never been.

I wish that was true in my case. However, it is not. It is far too late to change now even if I had the desire/money to do so. I have prostate issues. I hate the fact that it hurts me to pee. I can't go see the doctor, urology won't see me without health insurance. Hello, I am unemployed. How could I possibly have health insurance.

I had it when I worked at wm. It was all right, I guess. Paid for all those tests.

Anyway, about males. I may be male but I consider myself only that.

Getting to the point here, I watch the UFC because I like watching males get the crap beat out of each other. It kinda reminds me of Ancient Rome, gladiators and all that. It would not be cool if someone got killed. I mean, just because I have misandry does not mean I wish them grievous harm.

Measuring how tough you are isn't always judged in how you fight. People who survive cancer, paralysis, major surgery, people like that are tough.

I am not really that bothered by male friends. Just don't compare yourself to me. I am not like you or anyone else.

It could be the decline of Western culture. It's playing out in its birthplace right now. See how it's going in Athens right now?

I regret being born when I was instead of 100 years before. Of course, I wish I had not been born at all. A lot of things would have been better, I think.

Arthelius says: 'Living then dying leaves a memory but being never was does not."

Of course, he is a Jedi ghost. Knows such things.

Transgender Politician

This is Yollada. She is a politician who is Thai and has recently won a victory to whatever post in the Thai government.

Like Jenna T, Yollada is an attractive transgender person. It makes me wonder if humans as we evolve, are losing sexual dimorphism. I have XY-chromosomes as well but I sure don't look like a girl.

Though at wm, I was often mistaken for a girl. I do not know what that was about, could be my not-gender-specific eyeglasses. I like my glasses though I hate being myopically blind without them.

Read this story about Yollada, http://goo.gl/TqZsK

It is at Global Post, a news site that I read occasionally.

Don't mistake my interest in transgender people for wanting to be that way. I want to know how it happens and what it feels like. A great majority of transgender people I have seen are not attractive so how are these ex-boys attractive?

I wouldn't mind having one as a friend but nothing more than that.

Of all things to be curious about. I don't know why.

Oh, and mosquitoes. The little scourge. They seem to be a bad problem here. I will write about that later.

Depeche Mode

,I first heard of Depeche Mode when I was a sophomore in high school. It wasn't like I was under a rock or anything but during my childhood, it was always country music. I grew to detest country music, particularly anything made after the year 2000.

I got the 'Violator' tape when it was new. I first heard it on a school trip and for me, it is a reminder of an earlier time.

The songs Martin Gore writes reflect things I feel in my present life, particularly feelings about Jen. I used to listen to the 'Best of Depeche Mode' on my way to and from wm when I worked there. I would play it loud, boost up the bass and it was all right.

I would find it hard picking a favorite song of theirs. I like a lot of them. If I had to pick one, it would just probably be 'Policy of Truth'. It sounded wicked in that car I used to drive.

More distressingly, I may listen to Depeche Mode as I commit suicide, should that line be finally crossed. It hasn't been yet. My faith is too strong to just give up like that.

I would never come outright and profess my Christian beliefs. It is my business, not anyone else's. I mean, I believe in Cosmology and Evolution as well. My core belief is in Causality.

Music helps me deal. I have a lot of music. More than I should have. It is probably why I am poor now.

I have the 'Violator' cd now. It will likely be the first cd I play in a future car. I am selling mine but I will write about that only after it is gone. I will post pictures of it going away.

I'm sure that there are others that like Depeche Mode. I have known some. So what if the Fox doensn't play it? Rock is fine but not all the time.

Beauty

This is Jenna Tacklova, the person who ran for Miss Canada in the Miss Universe Pageant scheme.

I saw her on CNN when that was going on and gosh, I have known transgender people in the past, you know, Austin, but gosh, Jenna is not like them. She is beautiful.

I have no problem with transgenderism. I mean, in my stories, it is done with either hormones and surgery or easily by reconstruction technology. I have written about Lin Ekesa here before. He became a she eventually through that technology.

Unlike real life, where Jenna likely had to go by hormones and surgery. I wish that technology existed for people like her. That way, she could be 100% female and no one would say anything.

I wish her all the success she desires. I think she is a beautiful feminine person.

I can't say that I am attracted to people like her. I mean, my ex-gf Jennifer typifies, at least physically, what I find attractive. I will likely never find another like her. For that, I am glad.

I may make another transgender character. In the age of Body Change, it doesn't mean a whole lot.

I wish that we did not hate. Of course, my wish of $30 million to have is more likely.

Back Again

I am back online. This is all right.

I have been hurting recently but I won't write about icky personal problems here. That is why I have my nudie blog.

Err, I hate any mention of politics anymore. It is getting intolerable.

I will write about something cool later.