Suffer Cold

I could bitch about the cold in my blog like I have been doing but really, I suffer in it.

There is no heat in my room. It pretty much flows with the temperature, though thankfully, doesn't get lower than the low 50's.

It is 30 degrees outside as I write this, radiational cooling through the clear sky into outer space. I reckon the stars are beautiful but I am not going to freeze my tail off by going out there.

It should warm up in the next few days, until la arctica sends another frigid package our way, which is looking likely in the long range forecast.

What is causing this? Seasonal procession? The Sun? Gaseous emissions from industry, cars, cows and people? I do not know.

I am also feeling kinda lonely, the holidays do that, you know.

That is why I hate them so.

Accursed Cold

If you read this blog, and some do, I know, you know that I HATE cold weather. It hurts. My hands and feet go numb in the cold, ice cold.

An unnatural cold airmass seems to have parked itself over our beloved Tx. I mean, 35 in the daytime? I can't remember when this happened in the past few winters and the thing is, it is not even winter yet! Not for a little under a month!

Ice storm gripping West Tx as I write this. It will be here later. I don't go anywhere so it is a non-issue, well, travel wise. It will be so cold.

Haven't seen the Sun in a few days. Get more upset on a primal level the longer sunlight is not felt, even on a pale hide like mine.

I don't know when this unnatural coldness will end. Maybe it will be 80 again soon, I sincerely hope.

I remember when I was a kid, it was like 5 degrees outside. I haven't really seen that since. I hope I never do.

One Year Older

Today is my birthday. I don't like birthdays. I am getting older. In fact, my facial hair is mostly gray. I am not 'old' yet, being only 38, but I am closer to it than I am to those wonderful days in the early 80s when I was loved.

I sleep in the daytime so I missed a lot of my b-day. I received many well wishes and that was nice. People haven't forgotten, not that FB would let you forget.

I have been writing, playing Final Fantasy XII. I watched a few movies.

My life is not exactly worthy, I mean, what do I contribute? I am on SSI even. What shame is this?

Can't be like Arthelius, he's ageless. He's off traveling again, visiting the Great Attractor. Not bad for a ghost.

Crazy Weather

Snipped from the National Weather Service:

    Tonight Mostly clear, with a low around 32. South southeast wind 5 mph.

Thursday Increasing clouds, with a high near 63. South wind 5 to 10 mph.

     Friday Mostly sunny, with a high near 70. South wind 5 to 10 mph.

 Saturday Mostly sunny, with a high near 79. South southwest wind 10 to 20 mph, with gusts as high as 25 mph.

  Sunday Mostly sunny, with a high near 85. South southwest wind 10 to 15 mph becoming west northwest in the afternoon. Winds could gust as high as 20 mph

 

 

It is really cold now, has been for two days, first freeze of our season. I hate cold weather, it hurts and I feel very uncomfortable.

 

Yet by Sunday, it will be quite all right. But big wind is not fun either.

 

How does this affect seasonal dependent things? Go from 80s to freezing for a couple of days, then back to 80s again?

 

What is going on? The weather is fucked up, you are willfully ignorant if you disagree. Whether it is Global Warming or Climate Change or the beginning of a new Ice Age, I cannot say. Something has changed, that is all I know.

 

Is it the Sun's fault? The arbiter of life on Earth and possibly other locations in the Solar System, the Sun is the be-all and end-all of life and vitality in our local biome.

 

Supposed to be highly active in its 11-year cycle, it hasn't been. What is its problem?

 

Too many questions. The weather is no joke.

Typhoon Haiyan in Google Earth

This is Typhoon Haiyan, an extremely powerful cyclonic storm about to make life difficult in the Philippines.

This beast is dangerous.


I hope people respect the storm and take cover.

Changing Diet

I have thought about it for several years now. it started when I worked at walmart.

I know red meat is bad for us humans. Lions and such thrive on it, good for them.

I would become semi-vegetarian if I could. I won't give up chicken. My diet is largely vegetarian anyway. I like granola bars and chips and a certain kind of pizza, vegetable soup and salad.

But as long as I live with my family, not my own family, I have no wife or children, but my parents, I cannot change my diet. They have to have red meat in every meal.

Red meat. I wiped out my ss in one day, Nov 1st, the first was the $193 grocery bill, $70 to $100 of it red meat. $16 for a fucking roast. I hate roast. Why do I do this? I don't want to cause a conflict. I respect those whom I love.

One day, I will cut red meat from my diet. I can get by on chicken, occasionally fish. Never did have fish all that often when I was younger. Just wasn't bought or whatever.


Since I cook the most now, I should be able to control what I cook. I hate cooking meat. I prefer to bake things. Shake and Bake chicken breast is great.
I can also bake it with Italian spices and tomatoes to make a different thing.

I put canned chicken in my pasta. I don't like dark meat chicken and am careful to choose wisely.

I want to try pita again. I did when I worked at wm. Now that I have an income again, I can do things like that. Funny, my ss benefit is about $12 more than what I made at wm in a month. But then, I don't have a health insurance deduction and that is going to eat on me when I get Silver level BCBS in January.

If I don't change my diet, I will need health insurance for the damage red meat is doing to my body.

I don't know if the diet I have is hurting my prostate, something is. I have to go back to urology eventually.

Oh, sugar. My sweet tooth will be the end of me, I just know it.

Difference

For a long time, like when I was a kid in the 80s, it was like a dire insult to be called 'queer'. I have seen and been in fights that followed.

But as I got older, I was cute in that way as a teenager. People assume I was and am like that. They mistake my anxiety disorder for that.

I have misandry. How could I possibly like another guy like that? I don't feel attracted to other guys. I don't like that. What I am attracted to is female.

Certain females, like Mia Magma in the October issue of PH, that is what I like.

But the question that if you see a gay person, what would you think? I don't care, it is not my business nor is it my right to judge.

In Oakland this past Monday, a non-binary gendered teenager was set on fire on a city bus. What the hell? What gives people the right to do such a thing? It makes me so angry, intolerance and hate. Haven't we learned sensitivity for LGBT people? They are people too.

I am Texan, yes, but I am mildly liberal in beliefs. I believe everyone should be afforded the same respect and dignity. I don't understand the hurtful beliefs of conservative people. I believe they are willfully ignorant or just plain stupid.

No, I did not vote for Cruz. I have never voted for a re-stupid-can and never will.

I hope this burn victim, Sasha, will be okay.

Hate and intolerance should not be acceptable in any culture.

I have talked in my blog before about people who are that way. They don't bother me. It is just difference.

Ill Humor

I have been told that I lack a sense of humor all my life. I am a sensitive guy. I am over-sensitive actually.

I find some things funny, WWE Raw, for example. Or certain voices in the Spore game. I don't find crude humor that funny.

Most jokes do not amuse me. What amuses me are funny pictures and situations.

A long time ago, when I was on WebTV, I received a spam e~mail that showed a sad teddy bear, which had a small peena. He then used a vacuum cleaner hose on his and it got big. I thought that was funny. I wish I could have saved it.

Spam isn't like that no more. It is bunch of bs now. My peena is 7 inches when excited, I don't need enhancement. I don't need an auto loan, nor do I want to waste bandwidth on online porn.

Some spam is irritating, like female specific ones. I am not female. If I was, I'd find peena enhancement spam irritating. I'm sure many do.

People don't like that about me, my ill humor. I don't mean it, it's just the way I am.

Night Chill

It is getting colder at night. I am a night creature. I sit here in the stillness and it is easier to write and enjoy my music now.

I have a hard time in the cold. I get cold so easily. It also has effects on my body, especially my feet, which get ice cold.

It also affects my peena. I will post a picture of it if you want to see it. I'm not shy like that.