Radio and Anger

I like Trance music. I like electronica in general. I listen to internet radio, mainly entranced.fm and others. I have been listening for a while today. It is great.

Then I asked why waste your money in seeing 3D Episode 1, if you have the dvd? A person with whom I went to school, one I don't recall ever being my friend, said that he was doing it for his kid. WTF? Like a kid's going to know any different? I saw Return of the Jedi in the theater in 1983. Do you think I can remember that too well? I do vaguely.

I saw Ep 1 in the theater, the other two as well. The theater does not make it a better movie. It is a colossal disappointment in execution and dialog. Maybe if you didn't have a suck tv, perhaps you would not be pleased with a simple dvd. 

I have a suck tv, 19 inch maganovox from a Cove pawn shop. It is connected to a Directv box. It has issues but is still watchable. If I wanted digital, I would watch it on this computer screen, which is an lcd one. I watch my porn on this screen, lol. 

Anyway, what made me angry is mentioning their children. One child brings humanity closer to extinction. Overpopulation. If that child fails in life, it is the parent's fault. They are to blame when there is not enough to go around.

We are put here to breed? Fuck you. I did not ask to be born. 

I have prostate issues. I have a mind that clamps down on physicality when stressed. I have a stress disorder caused by the umbrella term anxiety disorder. Anxiety that will make me kill myself one day. 

I think of my niece, who is now 12. I have watched her since she was very small. I worry a lot about her and she is not even mine. I could not deal with the worry of my own. 

Anyway, I am unemployed, and yet, when I worked at wm, I did not nearly have enough money to consider having a child. It is a disservice to that child if you cannot afford him/her. 

What are you doing anyway? Being animal like and spawning. 

Ha ha, venting my spleen. I don't care what you think. You have no idea of what I feel or go through daily. 

I won't say I am right, but I have my opinions. As I get older, the less likely it will be I can take care of myself let alone a child. 

I will chill now. 

Arthelius, who had no children and died a long time ago now, said, "It is in the individual that life goes on."

Truth.