Icky Mess

I had an extreme male pain. This is usual when I have to crap. Increased pressure in my colon presses on my prostate gland and ay, it hurts like a motherfucker.

Only this time, I don't know if it is because I am sick or I feel like a Ken doll cooked in the microwave, I lost bowel control. Got in my MeUndies and on my leg as I took them off, contaminating my pants and a towel I wore when I used All Free-Clear to handwash my MeUndies, which are clean and drying.

I am 39 years old. I am aging, everyone is, but will my elder life mean more incidents like this? No, I believe this was an isolated incident because it was partly dia-icky, like a gelatinous mass.

I don't know what caused it. I did swallow mucous as it comes down my throat, no choice. A lifelong ingrained thing, something my mom did NOT tolerate was spitting. I cannot spit, unless I really have to.

And the mucous still flows. I don't know why this illness persists. I drink orange juice and boost the Vitamin C in my over sugar-laden system.

I have allergy medicine but it only helped by stopping the constant sneezing.

Now a cough has started. Not a painful cough, my chest does not hurt, rather when the mucous builds up.

I feel ashamed. Such a stupid mess. I scrubbed myself raw with Dial and then the body wash I use. I will consider this an isolated incident and the next time that severe male pain erupts, go to the fucking bathroom.

My prostate gland issued some fluid, meaning it was squished on. Muscle tension and pressure pressing on it, that is how it got damaged in the first place.

I remember when Dr. H gave me that prostate massage, it was an awful and embarrassing mess and I did not even have an erection. No, pressing on my prostate will cause pain and pain is second only to anxiety that will kill excitement. I don't understand how other guys like a prostate massage. That is agony and a feeling of violation to me.

I am sorry to share this with you. It is what happened and I am feeling ashamed. Smh....

I rechanged my blog back to a dark theme because the white hurts my eyes. I am more light-sensitive than normal. I do not know why. I am going to the eye doc soon.

I hope I feel better soon.

Feeling

I don't know what you are looking for here. Why read what I post? I reflect on my pain.

I had a dia-icky event yesterday and it was quite painful and particularly nasty. Dia-icky like that is not funny and was easy to wash away as I usually do. I do not use tp ever. I spray my tail end in the bathtub. It isn't as gross as it sounds.

I know there is too much sugar in my diet. I need it, feel miserable without it. It is why I have a belly, I know. That and not being very active.

This can be a bad thing. I am not as strong as I once was. I am older now and like the Spanish teacher in 11th Grade said, 'if you don't use it, you will lose it'. The same is true of your muscles.

I vaguely remember high school. It ended 20 years ago for me and my class, many of whom are my fb friends.

My memory is like an old computer memory that's full. Some is given up to make space for the new. If aging damages this like happens so often, I don't know what will happen.

I will age in an era of the 'singularity' if some people are to be believed. I read about things in Scientific American and wonder if they ever will be relevant in my life.

Probably not. I am mentally sick with anxiety disorder and agoraphobia and am on disability
because of it.

I will probably hide in my shell as I do now.

Ghostlike.

Cause and Dia-Icky

I don't eat fast food much. I have the same problem when I do. I was hungry so I went to Jack in the Box and got what I have always gotten there, a chicken sandwich.

It is not the sandwich that causes dia-icky. I mean I can make one here and it doesn't do that. It is the soda.

I should have ordered tea. Tea doesn't bother me unless it is over-sugared, then there is an issue with the sugar death. Feeling icky inside.

This is avoidable, sure, but anxiety makes it a do it now or else feeling.

So, about an hour after consumption, squish-squish. It was not as painful as the last affliction of dia-icky mainly because my gut did not clench so painfully. It just flowed.

So in the future, I will avoid most sodas (Sprite, Sierra Mist, 7UP, do not bother me) and stick with sweet tea.

I had a panic attack going to the store. I do not know if it contributed to this. I have tension pain in my male area when this happens. That is how my prostate gland was damaged in the first place.

Almost ran out of gas getting to the town. By the grace of God, I did not and am truly thankful.

Do you know what causes  you dia-icky? Do you avoid it? I know being sick is not a choice but I have not been sick like that in a really long time. It is direct cause for me.

Return of Dia-Icky

It has been a while. I mean, true, there has been a poor diet as someone dear is in the hospital and our normal way of doing things is in a disarray.

I think it has to do with milk. I don't know what else could have caused the worst sort of dia-icky there is.

I have a handful of days yet before I can go to the store. I can't go do my laundry, it is two weeks since I have done it and I am running out of socks. I HAVE to have socks, it's that important.

Lucky, this is the black part of my distorted laundry cycle so maybe, should I have an accident, it won't be so bad.

I am hurting because my gut clenched, whose muscle action squishes my prostate gland, upsetting it.

Maybe it is the sugar death but it hasn't really affected me like this before.

Nothing funny about it this time. That was bad, just plain awful.

Icky Again

This is getting old. I am trying to find the cause and it might be whole milk which I used to make a skillet meal. I am lactose intolerant. I get icky effects if I drink whole milk, which is contrary to my early life.

I use 2% milk and it doesn't bother me. However, last time, they brought in whole milk. Got no choice when recipes call for it. I am sick of not having money in the last two weeks of the month. I could fix this.

Dia-icky hit me at 830 last night and I had to GO. it was like entrails liquefying, hot feeling and icky, so icky.

I had an accident but I cleaned my underwear right away and they should be okay.

It was not a pair I am particularly fond of anyway.

I don't know if this amuses you or not. I thought it was amusing but this is the second day of this and maybe something's wrong.

I know it is dia-icky when this pressure builds and presses on my prostate, HURTS, it does. I don't need that pain to intensify.

If I am getting sick, I don't know what to do. I still don't know how to use Medicare. Besides, going to the doctor for dia-icky is almost as embarrassing as a prostate exam.

It's been so hot, sweaty, losing body hydration. Dia-icky makes it worse. I have been so darn thirsty.

I will let you know if this persists because after 3 days, I will have to go to the doctor.

Are you shy when you go the doctor? I am not. Too many times when embarrassing things happened.

Ha ha, Dia-Icky

Maybe it is funny. Not at the time for it feels like your guts are liquefying and cleaning up is like ick.

I had it again. Could be that I drank a Dr. Pepper, which is like a laxative in soda form. Many years ago, an IHOP waitress told me and my friend Ed that Dr. Pepper is like prune juice. I don't know, I never had prune juice to my knowledge.

I am in the white part of my laundry cycle. I hope I don't have another bout of dia-icky. Wouldn't want to stain my white C-IN2 briefs. 

If soda is so bad for you, why is it so readily available? I will stick to Sierra Mist and an occasional Pepsi.

Can't drink Coke, something in it really irritates my prostate. I drink one, I will hurt.

Dia-icky hurts like that.

Still, it can be funny, squishy funny.

How often do you have dia-icky? It's not funny, but really, it is if you take a light-hearted look at it.

Dia-Icky Again

Am I going to write about every time I have dia-icky? Why not? It doesn't happen very often, usually when I eat or drink or eat something that causes it.

What was it this time? Too much sugar, of course. When I have to make my own tea (I prefer to buy the gallon jug of sweet tea already made) I put one cup of sugar in one gallon of tea.

Okay, this is typical. But I use ice to 'water down' this and have more water than tea. This is a good thing. This makes it less sugary.

When you drink it without ice, as we didn't have any until a bit ago, this can cause what happened to me.

Icky, icky. You know from previous posts I don't like to poo. Dia-icky hurts in a different way.

Boom! Icky....

I cleaned up like usual, Dial and everything. Washing my nether area too much will dry it out and that is not a good thing.

I will ease up on the sugar.

This is a post about a bodily function. Dia-icky happens to everyone some time or other.

Might as well find something amusing about it.

Dia-icky Again

How about another post about a bodily function?

I did not eat for many hours because we ran out of food one day before payday. This is all right, I didn't suffer too much.

But I went to Jack in the Box and I don't usually eat fast food anymore. I do enjoy it but it has a problem.

I believe it is the soda that causes this. I was sitting here chatting with my cousin on fb and it hit me, an extreme pain in my prostate, happens when there is colon pressure on it, typical when I have to poo. This was worse than the normal poo pain.

I went and drip drip, there goes dia-icky. Like water. Icky ew, I don't use tp, I went and re-washed my nether area.

Now I hurt in my prostate area because once it is hurt by poo pressure or the doctors pressing on my prostate in a digital rectal exam, it will hurt for a while.

I could not have sex with this pain. It isn't that I couldn't get hard, I cannot sustain it because it hurts inside. If you know anything about male anatomy, the prostate gland is right under the urinary bladder. The base of the peena is nearby, anchored to the pubis bone. When hard, the peena applies lateral pressure in the prostate and in sex, more pressure and it goes in and out. This is why it hurts me to have sex.

The m-thing doesn't hurt like this but I can't do it when I hurt like right now.

Dia-icky hurts like this. I will avoid fast food for a while as this would have been a disaster if I was in a public place.

I changed into black underwear just in case. Did you know Spanx makes guys' underwear too?

I know this post would bother some people, but this is how it is. I am not shy about talking about this pain I live with every day.

I saw my prostate gland on a CT scan. I was more taken by my pelvis on there, like a deep narrow bowl. I wish I could get access to it so I could post it. I should, that contrast fluid I had to drink was icky gross. I could barely stand it.

I am going to have to go back to urology again. Almost certain that I will get another torturous DRE. I have to give pee, they might milk my prostate, which is embarrassing. That was only done once but that is once more than I want that to happen. I hate that.

I know girls can have a lot of problems in their system but this guy problem is like fuck, can't even pee and it not hurt.

Can't post images like that here but I would if I could. The state of my peena is a good indicator if I am hurting or not, though anxiety causes it too.

Being a ghost, Arthelius doesn't have these problems. Of course, his girlfriend is a tawny haired Wookie female.

Maybe No Sugar

It occurs to me that sugar is not possibly the wisest thing. It is why I weigh 164 lbs and why my teeth need help.

So I get tea with an artificial sweetener in it. I learned a valuable lesson after using too much. I haven't had dia-icky since I wrote about it last time. But I did in a majorly painful way.

That hurts, not because dia-icky itself hurts and is always unpleasant, it causes pelvic muscles to clench and squeeze my prostate which hurts like nothing else.

Maybe I will lose weight. I would if I got off my tail and exercised but can't do it here, the environment isn't conducive for it. I would have to go to a gym and learn from someone who knows more than me about such things what to do.

I would like to learn to swim as well. Never learned how.

What a thing, to be in swim trunks and having pale skin and a belly. My anxiety keeps me in because of this.

I haven't been swimming since I was a teenager. I haven't done a lot of things since I was a teenager. That was almost 20 years ago. What can I do now?

I will cut down on the sugar. I will also try to eat better. I will try to avoid dia-icky as well because it hurts. It already hurts to pee, can't do anything about that.

Ha ha, tmi perhaps but that is how things are. How does sugar affect you? I know people who avoid it like the plague.

Myself, got to have it.