Hydration

 I developed gout in my right foot late last year. It was severely painful and my foot swelled to look like that of the Michelin Man.

The doctor had x-rays taken. I was 'not allowed' to see them, even if it is my foot and my bones. 

I got two medicines which made gout go down. The pain went away though if I walk too much it hurts a little. My foot is not presently swollen and my hip hurts more than my foot but for a different reason. I am not going to talk about my right hip pain until it is looked at. 

Ever since, I drink A LOT of water. I know when uric acid is being excreted when the pee has a golden tint, not like dehydration yellow. I drink water to flush the uric acid out of my body which is a preventative measure.

Gout will return eventually. It is incurable. I have a genetic weakness to it. I do not know which of my ancestors had gout. My parents did not. 

I pee extremely frequently. Thank goodness my prostate issues went away but what is this doing to my kidneys? I have not noticed any pain or sign like blood in pee, which I have seen only once when my prostate was infected over 9 years ago. 

I am reticent to go find a sex friend because of this. My hydration reflex is fast. I drink water and I have to pee less than 10 minutes later. 

So if I am seen at the ice machine, which the water is 25 cents a gallon, so often, that is why. 

I am liable to see the doctor some time in the summer. I dont like being indebted even if I have insurance. 

I am okay. My foot is okay, as long as I stay hydrated. 

Eye Exam

You might have noticed that I wear glasses. I have since I was 12. I have highly moderate myopia, blurrily blind without them. Sometimes it was worse. Like after the comprehensive eye examination I had yesterday. I could not bear to look at a white screen for hours after that.

Dilation is used to look for glaucoma and cataracts. I have a slight cataract but as an overnight person, it won't get too bad for me.

Everybody gets a cataract so take care of your eyes.

My vision is stable, changed only a pale fraction in a good way. I will get new glasses soon.

The dilation is caused by a stinging and cold feeling eye drop used by the eye doctor. I am posting a picture of my 'bad' left eye.

This is what it did to my eyes...

Problem

I did shave today but I don't want to post the check picture. It was too cold to do it on my normal day yesterday. It was kind of cold today. Of course, this native Texan's idea of cold is anything lower than 70 degrees F.

I have a new anxiety medicine now, sertraline, and it is doing a good job. If you read the past of this blog, you know I used to take citalopram for a long time. Unlike it, sertraline does not make me super-sleepy.

It has all but disabled my sexual ability. It feels like it's not a big deal but I don't know.

I haven't had a bad panic attack since I started taking this new medicine. I will tell the doctor it is doing me good.

I have been able to sleep without panic waking me up like it was before.

This medicine has also all but swept away the grief I was feeling. I am able to remember my dad in a positive way.

I am constipated right now and that is never fun. Err, feel uncomfortable.

Cold Effect

I am cold. My heater overheated and had to reset. I was shivering so bad.

This is the time I need to take care of my male health. By that, I mean the m-thing but being so cold, my penis doesn't want to cooperate. I guess my body reckons it doesn't want to share blood down there. The way my feet feel, it is super-chilled.

I am not posting an image of my penis here. I did post it elsewhere. If you want to see it, mind that I am very cold and was when I took this a bit ago, go here.

I am sorry if this bothers you. I am kind of a show-off.

Male Pain Again

I didn't really want to talk about it but I am hurting more than normal recently. I just had to crap and that REALLY hurt. Add to that, it is very cold in the bathroom at the moment.

Taking a shower in that cold bathroom is no fun either. Shiver until the water warms.

I was told three things to manage this pain. Dr. H emphasized number 3 on this list.

1. Take Motrin. I cannot take ibuprofen, it hurts my stomach. 

2. Take a hot bath, which I can't when it is so cold. The cold steals away the heat fast. 

3. Masturbate. I try not to do it too much, it always hurts afterward. And plus, cold.... 

Why did Dr. H tell me to do that? Well, prostatic fluid builds up over time and is subject to infection. I had one of these before and it is like stinging fire combined with a migraine in your pelvis. 

Have to release ever so often or get sick again.

I know it is a hard subject to talk about. It is part of being male, sure. I am cursed with this pain that is always there, just a little more harsh now. 

2 things will kill excitement in that area.

1. Anxiety, a panic attack will shut things down like an iron hammer coming down.

2. Cold. My body does NOT like cold at all.

Sure, I can get it to work, but maintaining when it's so cold? Nope.

Ha, if you could see it now, it is not in the excited state at all. I'm cold.

Short of posting a picture, that will have to do.

My male pain should subside eventually back to the dull ache I always feel there. I wonder about the day it doesn't subside. What then?

Ever go to the doctor for this? Embarrassing ain't the word for it.

Maybe No Sugar

It occurs to me that sugar is not possibly the wisest thing. It is why I weigh 164 lbs and why my teeth need help.

So I get tea with an artificial sweetener in it. I learned a valuable lesson after using too much. I haven't had dia-icky since I wrote about it last time. But I did in a majorly painful way.

That hurts, not because dia-icky itself hurts and is always unpleasant, it causes pelvic muscles to clench and squeeze my prostate which hurts like nothing else.

Maybe I will lose weight. I would if I got off my tail and exercised but can't do it here, the environment isn't conducive for it. I would have to go to a gym and learn from someone who knows more than me about such things what to do.

I would like to learn to swim as well. Never learned how.

What a thing, to be in swim trunks and having pale skin and a belly. My anxiety keeps me in because of this.

I haven't been swimming since I was a teenager. I haven't done a lot of things since I was a teenager. That was almost 20 years ago. What can I do now?

I will cut down on the sugar. I will also try to eat better. I will try to avoid dia-icky as well because it hurts. It already hurts to pee, can't do anything about that.

Ha ha, tmi perhaps but that is how things are. How does sugar affect you? I know people who avoid it like the plague.

Myself, got to have it.

Poo

Not interested in the weather, or tropical storms? How about this post?

Everybody goes to the bathroom. If you have a digestive system, you have to go every so often. This is regularity if you are healthy.

I am not regular myself. My body apparently likes to wait for things to build up and release it all at once. I am no stranger to constipation.

That aphorism, if you eat crap, you get crap, is so true. I am sick of eating beef. I can't avoid it, it is like not having a control over my diet because I cannot afford to get different things for each family member.

I tend to have a lot when eating potatoes, bread, pasta, things that are supposed to be good for you. I eat a granola bar every day when I wake up. I drink a pepsi as well but maybe that is not a good idea. My body doesn't like soda so much anymore and something in them hurts my prostate like the urologists said it would.

I don't like poo. It hurts to go for me. I don't use tp mostly as I go before I take a shower. I use water to clean up. I am very particular about being clean there as I used to not care when I was younger. I can't imagine being like that now.

I think if you can't talk about it, you have issues of your own. Think about that the next time you poo.

Dia-Icky

Err... an uncomfortable subject. It happens to all of us. Many things cause it. In my case at the moment it is the over-chlorinated tap water used to make my tea and bathe in and whatever else.

I have a hard time spelling diarrhea. Had to do spellcheck to get that right, for an example.

I know it as dia-icky and it is icky. Try cleaning up from it.

This causes a pressure build in my colon that presses on my irritable prostate gland. Oh, fuck does that hurt. It feels like being stabbed there. My prostate gland is damaged, too sensitive and hurts all the time. Stress did that to it. I avoid stress in my life now but the damage is done.

I cannot hold it when it hits me, I HAVE TO GO. Not a problem since I spend most, if not all, of my time sitting here. The bathroom is just a few steps away.

Gut clenches, that HURTS. Muscles contract and squeeze on my prostate. How it got damaged in the first place. It hurts worse than it did when this began to be sure but it is a pain I have grown used to.

Dia-icky is dangerous because it lessens the hydration level of your body. I seem not to have a problem with that as I have to pee every 15 minutes or so.

I don't know if the over-chlorinated water is harming us in any other way. It is stupid, the water company.

Does this post bother you? Think of dia-icky the next time it happens to you. Maybe my word for it would amuse you in this unpleasant time.