It is supposed to be a nice day to be thankful for what you have and all that. It is a nice day to go to the park or see a movie or go out to eat. It is a nice day off for the Post Office, banks and others that live by 'business days', a concept that should be abolished.
Let me talk about Sunday. For most of my adult life, even when I was a teenager, I worked on Sunday. I always considered it a workday. Why does walmart pay a Sunday Premium? Are you not supposed to work on Sunday?
I could go to church but that would lead to questions and I told you about questions. My beliefs are dependent to not asking questions that could cause a suicidal feeling.
I feel the worst on Sundays. I feel more worthless than usual and I reckon that it will be a Sunday when I will end this life. But not this Sunday.
I have a hope that I will find love. I have a hope that I will eventually get help for my anxiety disorder.
If I do, Sundays would not be such a difficult day for me.
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