Added Worry

You may or may not know. I am on SS for my Anxiety Disorder. I mean, this condition is sometimes suicidal. I contemplate sometimes, which distresses me.

Now with the US Government shut down, will SS come in November? If the Govt defaults, will this be the end of my livelihood?

I worry more as the bastards bicker over ideology while the country burns. Didn't they learn from history? We are going the way of Ancient Rome.

I sincerely hope someone settles this, grows a spine, channels past politicians, whatever, get them to see sense and fix this problem.

As I said, I am feeling anxiety-distress. This will get worse if my livelihood is threatened.

Shutdown

Let me preface this by admitting that I am of the Democratic persuasion.

What is it with ideology? Are they loyal to it or the Constitution the swore to uphold? If they were like this truly, then they are traitors to the United States.

Who are 'they'? They are these tea party filth infecting the Congress. Any party that advocates stripping rights, benefits, and vitals from the public should be tarred and feathered and set on fire. Sadly, that is not acceptable in our society.

Why is the government shut down? Arcane rules set forth more than 225 years ago? Yes, those rules protect us and our freedom and should be upheld to the highest standard. This factionalism is anti-Constitution. I do not know what to say about it, the last time this happened, I was a young adult.

I have always admired President Clinton despite his personal mistakes. He could pull us out of this mess.

What would President Theodore Roosevelt have done? Would someone go back in time 115 years and get him? We could use his help.

Nobody in Congress is innocent. Those without spines are as complicit as this douchebag Cruz who is not Texan. I am Texan, I did not hear of him until he ran for office. Yes, our state government is plagued by similar douchebags but their time is ending. Texas will be Democratic again, like it was for the last 130 years before W. Fairweather voters go with who is popular. This is dangerous.

Having an R by your name ought to mean that you are socially and intellectually retarded.

Not all Republicans are bad. Those who are not are a pale handful compared to the tide of filth infecting the House of Representatives.

I may hate conservatism but I see the need for duality in any decision. Extremes in either direction are dangerous and should not be allowed to run for office.

How do you properly vet someone to expose extremism and intolerance?

I have no more to say on the matter. I am ashamed to be an American because of this shutdown.

Political

I am of Democratic beliefs. I am not terribly liberal. I hate Conservatist obstructionists.

I am pro-choice, because denying anything like a medical procedure is wrong. I have no children. I am not sensitive to arguments about children.

I avoid political discussions usually, they tickle my anxiety something awful.

I am not female. I do not know really what makes the decision to abort a pregnancy. I am sensitive and have empathy for a hurt female. That decision has to hurt. A girl wouldn't be human if she did not regret. Yes, there are some who wouldn't care but I don't believe many are like that.

If a female decides to do this, she should have access to clean facilities and real doctors to ensure she won't have to go to somewhere dirty and risk life-threatening illness.

You may or may not know. I am a Texan. The morons in Austin seek to deny this safe and clean way to have this done. Is that not harmful? Making a female have a child, is that right?

Yes, it is her fault. Why couldn't she be content with masturbation? Getting pregnant is an alignment of sex and fertility. Takes two.

I have had only two sex affairs in my life. I did not make either of my girlfriends pregnant. It isn't that hard.

I do blame males. Bastards. If sex was not the driving force of your un-evolved mind, perhaps you would be more successful.

Do not look at me, I have a mental illness. I am content with the m-thing. Anxiety prevents me from the real thing.

Rancor

I have no opinion on what happens in Florida. It is a terrible place for letting CA be acquitted. As the sea level rises because of CO2 in the atmosphere, Florida will increasingly be subsumed by the sea. Maybe that isn't so bad.

I have thought since this TM situation happened that the boy was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe he shouldn't have been shot, what is it with freaking guns? I don't own a gun and never will.

I think the whole situation is stupid. Major cities going bankrupt, restupidcan politicians put ideology before good governance. Hey, didn't you know why it is so hot in places it isn't usually so hot in?

No, I won't mention Climate Change in my blog. You are stupid if you think it isn't happening. Maybe the Earth is returning to a Cretaceous climate, no ice on the planet then.

But then, what happened when the Cretaceous ended? Whatever it was, Ankylosaurs, Tyrannosaurs, raptors, etc.... saw it happen, witnessed their own doom.

What is ours?

Political Extremism

Before I say this, I will admit that I am a Democrat, I believe in compromise, I believe less in bloated defense budgets and more in taking care of the people.

I hate extremism in any form. Whether it be from stupid and soulless islamists that blow themselves up to idiots like the tea party that is nazi-fying our government.

What is the deal? The way a government works is simple to understand

People work, pay tax --> revenue

Government decides where to put revenue ---> policy

President agrees --> law.

However, no one is working. I don't have a job. That has more to do with my personal pain that keeps me inside all day. Other people who do not have agoraphobia are unemployed. This is unacceptable. Why is there unemployment? A SIN. GREED. Corporate greed. Spend some time working at wm and see it in action. I do not believe anyone should have more than $1 billion. If that is communism, so be it. How much is enough?

What do conservatives have to cling to? Cold War era defense spending? Right to have a gun policy? Stripping women of individual freedoms? Corporate governance? Taking care of their rich friends and screwing people like us?

I am 36 years old. I live at the hind end of the American Century. I have no hope for the future. I wish I had killed myself in 2008 so I would not have to feel this rage against inaction and willful disregard for the country.

No one in the Congress is innocent. No one should be in the Congress longer than 12 years at a time. How long has Senator McCain been in government? Or Senator Reid?

The entire House of Representatives should be abolished. If they can't do their job and legislate, they should be charged as traitors for endangering American national security by destroying our economy.

Why is raising taxes so hard? What do you gain by not raising them? A broke government? Why bitch about spending? Cut pay to everyone in the Congress.

I am not in support of crippling the military. I am not sure Sequestration will cripple the military. I have lived by Ft Hood all my life. I am not sure the Army will suffer so badly. That's because of the bloated nature of the Defense budget. We have weapons that can kill anyone anywhere at anytime. Ask that al-qaida guy killed last week.

No, I do not believe in the current members of the congress, none of them. I do believe in President Obama, since he is not the one promising to strip health care from people as his first priority.

I cannot stand conservatives. I cannot stand the nazi-like tea party. I cannot stand dudes that tie up the entire government with a pledge to not raise taxes. I mean, all reps who signed that, who are they loyal to? That guy or the USA?

It is Un-American as surely as the sun will rise tomorrow.

Compromise? Sure, I would make a deal only if it did not hurt people. They are hurting people now by not compromising. They should be put in jail.

Transgender Politician

This is Yollada. She is a politician who is Thai and has recently won a victory to whatever post in the Thai government.

Like Jenna T, Yollada is an attractive transgender person. It makes me wonder if humans as we evolve, are losing sexual dimorphism. I have XY-chromosomes as well but I sure don't look like a girl.

Though at wm, I was often mistaken for a girl. I do not know what that was about, could be my not-gender-specific eyeglasses. I like my glasses though I hate being myopically blind without them.

Read this story about Yollada, http://goo.gl/TqZsK

It is at Global Post, a news site that I read occasionally.

Don't mistake my interest in transgender people for wanting to be that way. I want to know how it happens and what it feels like. A great majority of transgender people I have seen are not attractive so how are these ex-boys attractive?

I wouldn't mind having one as a friend but nothing more than that.

Of all things to be curious about. I don't know why.

Oh, and mosquitoes. The little scourge. They seem to be a bad problem here. I will write about that later.

Beloved Texas

I am a Texan. I am a 4th Generation Texan. I was born in the same town I grew up in. It will always be my home.

People make fun of Texas for different reasons, the way people talk, or the gaudy proportions of meal servings, or even the embarrassment of the Cowboys recent seasons.

However, when it comes to politics, understand something. Not every one in Texas is Republican. I know many who are not. Myself included. I did not vote for 'Pointy Boots' as Jeff Ward calls him, Rick Perry. I have known for years what an idiot he is. Just like his mentor, old Dubya himself, the king of idiots.

I have never been out of Texas. I wouldn't travel if I had the money because quite frankly, it is better here than where you are.

There are parts of Tx I do not like, like Killeen, but Killeen is a parasite city not representative of Tx because most of the people who live there are not from Tx.

We are nice people. We like to help others, and courtesy comes natural to us. Recent events may not agree with that but consider where they happened.

Remember next time you speak badly of Texas, you are offending people like me who love it. It is my home.

Recurrent Sadness

I am usually sad when I wake up every day. I do not know why, but it could be a transitive thing between dreams and reality. I hate reality. It is nothing but pain and stress. People say, 'that is life' but is it? Did we humans develop the curse of sentience because of pain and stress?

No, too much of what people believe is BS. Try studying Atenism sometime. If Akhenaten was able to foist his beliefs onto the people, it can be an analogy with modern conservatism. Only part of the Aten, the Sun providing life, is true, what in Conservatism is?

I saw someone on tv describe what is happening in now in the ridiculous Republican struggle for the nomination as a 'carnival'. I think it is more like a black hole sucking in money, tv time, good sense, effort, and desire to do anything truly good.

I don't hate anyone but I strongly dislike. I dislike conservatives but opinions can change.

I am not liberal. I am moderate. I like to agree. I don't like extremism of any kind.

Way off topic there, sorry.

I am sad because I have cyclical depression. It is caused by my anxiety disorder. Stress is a motivator and there was stress yesterday. Maybe not so today but the day is young as I write this.

Compounded with my prostate pain, this is how things will likely be for the rest of my life.

Remember, it is my choice when it ends.

Arthelius says, "It is the emotional blade that hurts most." Right on, brother.

The Noble Thing

I regret that I was not born in my ancestors' land of the UK. It is hardly not like I do not like Being Texan, it's in the blood. I have come to the belief after my congressman wrote me back after I asked him about the health care thing, that our government is a sad excuse for a legislative body. It only reinforced my opinion about abolishing the US House of Representatives. It is a body of inaction and iniquity.

General Washington in his Farewell Address wrote:

The alternate domination of one faction over another, sharpened by the spirit of revenge, natural to party dissension, which in different ages and countries has perpetrated the most horrid enormities, is itself a frightful despotism. But this leads at length to a more formal and permanent despotism. The disorders and miseries, which result, gradually incline the minds of men to seek security and repose in the absolute power of an individual; and sooner or later the chief of some prevailing faction, more able or more fortunate than his competitors, turns this disposition to the purposes of his own elevation, on the ruins of Public Liberty.

If he feared this more than 200 years ago, why did we forget this?

I believe that we do better with someone in charge. Does it really matter how he or she got there? The only thing that matters is how they serve the people. The West existed for over a thousand years under monarchies. Unrestrained capitalism and avarice have made our attempt at a pure democracy a bad joke.

I won't bash republicans. I don't hate anyone. However, I strongly dislike conservatism. I dislike the weakened will of liberalism. I am politically centrist. I believe in compromise and listening to all.

Why do people run for congress? That money could be better spent helping hungry kids and adults, improving education, securing our threadbare infrastructure before it collapses, etc...

Why do they want to be in the public eye like that? Some portion of the public will love them, another portion dispises them. Why can't someone truly be interested in helping the whole?

No, I do not vote, I do not believe that it changes a darn thing. Maybe that is a bad thing. I don't really leave the house so I don't really matter in the great scheme of things.

I would go back in time, to find my ancestor that came to America 150 years ago, to convince them that it is really no better than anywhere else. Oh, maybe I wouldn't have been born if that was the case, pity that. That wouldn't bother me in the least.

I think royalty should be earned. Every child is born the same. It is what he or she is taught that makes them who they are.

Inequality of wealth illustrates this point. How many rich kids get into trouble and how many poor kids excel to rise above their beginnings? If I was rich, I'd share it. I don't like the idea of money, it has been a stain on civilization for thousands of years.

A rich guy only has it easier because of his money. He is separated by a gulf between him and the other 95% of America that is hurting right now. That gulf needs to be eliminated. Tax him until he bleeds to secure our deficit.

Consumerism, materialsim, all of that falls under two deadly sins, Avarice and Gluttony. Greed is hardwired into the human brain. Perhaps back when we had fur and lived in the trees, it was a survival strategy. We have not changed in that way.

I totally believe that some people are blessed with nobility, then some inherit it. It is not for anyone to say that it is wrong.

I just wish one person would take the responsibility to enact the change we need. THAT is nobility.

In my stories' timeline, the USA folded, fell apart in the year 2449. I do not know if we will even last that long.