My pain moderates, comes and goes. My testicle is still swollen and there is blood in my pee. Tell me that something is not wrong. I went into panic mode when I saw that blood. I went and told my manager (only known as R here) and she said that is bad but did not offer any compassion or to let me go.
The last four times I have peed, the blood has faded away, but is still there. I have come to dread urinating. It is shockingly yellow and tinted red-orange. This is because of Phenazopyrid, a urinary painkiller that the ER doc precribed for me. The blood is because of ??? I am being sent to an urologist by my regular doc.
I cannot do the M-thing. The secretions involved are all tinted this disturbing yellow color. Besides that, my scrotum hurts on the left side (even now as I sit here). Think my employers care? Like Matt says. They don't care if you live or die.
My friend Devin had a heart condition. He was like 21 years old. Last year, he collapsed and died right behind the meat market cooler door. What did they do? Nothing. They posted a picture of him and made little ribbons.
The people I have come to absolutely despise did nothing and they are in charge.
What if I am redered sterile by this? Unlikely. There is nothing wrong with my right testicle. A darker prospect is prostate cancer. My maternal grandfather died of it. But I will ask the doctor about that.
Why shouldn't I be sad? Why did this happen?
I am off for the next 2 days. Maybe it'll be better as the meds take effect.
I imagine I will nap a lot. Seems that I do that more often these days.
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