Allergies

You might think ill of my allergies? I mean, who is allergic to laundry detergent? But it isn't something silly. My skin rages. I have scratched until I started bleeding in some places.


This is not restricted to any one part of me. My abdomen is most affected, then my legs, then my male parts. Parts covered by clothing.

Add to this the dry skin typical of this time of year and the itching is damn-near intolerable. I can manage but for how long? Do I have to hurt my skin scratching  as time goes by?

I cannot get a ride to the store to get more All Free-Clear and to the lavandería to rewash the Tide out of my clothes. This may be an overestimation of the problem but I won't feel it is all right until this is done.

I say it in Español because that is what is on the sign on the building in my hometown. I like saying that better anyway. I did take many years of Spanish in school and some of it bubbles up in the mental froth occasionally.

This itching is getting on my nerves. The rashes mar my pale skin. Dry skin is only making it worse.

Get this, last night, I normally use Old Spice Dry Skin Defense when it is bad. I couldn't, the hot water ran out and it was 40-ish in that bathroom. Ya! Cold! That hurt.

In the summertime when it is very hot, I like the cold, not in this time of the year at all.

My primary allergy, to mt. juniper, the most common tree in this area, is waffling because the pollen goes down and up depending on weather conditions. It is 33 degrees F as I write this on the highway bridge a little under two miles east here. Somehow, the government put a sensor there. You can see its antenna on the concrete railing.

It is the closest sensor to my house.

Curse this winter. Bring back the 80s! Years and temperature both!

Cold, but....

This cold, I hate it. My hands are frozen, it seems. I hold them in front of the heater and dry my skin out. It is Tuesday. That means I shave. I did and was careful. I have a few blemishes but it will heal.

I always look better the next day. I smile because over my life, it has been ingrained to smile when your picture is taken. Even my un-cute DL picture.

I got some shaving cream on my glasses. I think I got it all. I can't see without them.

Before all this, I washed my face with Cetaphil. That helps when skin is dry enough to flake off, a problem I had when I worked at wm.

Cetaphil costs a lot of money so I will conserve it until I can get some more.

I use Dove Sensitive on my face during the winter time. Make fun if you must but unless you are cursed with dry skin, you wouldn't know what helps.

It was cold but I did it. Here is my Shave Check picture.

No M-Thing

Another personal subject.

I don't usually write about that part of my life, how I manage the constant need. I am not different from other guys like that, I just hide it.

I started taking celexa again. I had bad anxiety and couldn't sleep but I slept well today. Well, until someone came to bother me.

The very dry arctic air that has paralyzed the USA is also down here in Tx. I am staying by the heater.

This is ravaging my skin. My arms, my knees, elbows, even my peena. I would post a picture of it so you can see but not in this blog. If you are interested, I can give you the address of this picture.

I use Aveeno, yet again. The potent kind. Itchy dry skin gets cracked and bleeds. Sensitivity increases.

It is a curse.

Getting back to the topic, I have to do the m-thing for health reasons, mainly to do with my stupid prostate gland. It will only hurt more as I get older.

But celexa.... it inhibits the reflex that helps a guy finish. I could go on for hours (not a good idea) and still wouldn't finish.

And the dry skin... I don't want to injure my peena. Imagine going to the doctor with that.

So I have suspended the m-thing. It will be hard but with low T, does it even matter anymore?

Awful Dry Skin-ness

You know, I'm not really that negative. I mean, here in the rural wasteland, I'm not much of anything. I do stuff in a daze. I have been playing Spore a lot and that takes up a lot of time.

My b-day is in several days. I do not know what I will do. I might go see my girlfriend and, errr, Jen, sweet angel Jen. I love her like no other.

What awfulness is this? Cold air. Wind. MF'ing GC is outside practically. Big wind destroys merchandise and signing. Think management cares? Hell no.

My dry skin is awful. 36% humidity in my room this instant. And people wonder why I use Olay Quench and Total Moisture soap. Dry skin on a male is just as bad as on a female. I admit to using it, urging others to try it. Quench helps a lot.

Anything with Shea Butter is best. I don't quite know what shea butter is but it is effective at staving off drying, cracking, and the most awful itching one can feel.

My urological problems have subsided save for the still difficulty in peeing I have when at work and home when I wait too long.

It hurts bad to wait too long. Don't be like me. If you have to go pee, GO. There is absolutely no excuse in damaging your urological area. It can lead to genital pain too. That is NO fun.

There is no shame in admitting that one pees. We all do. If we talked about it more, then maybe dehydration wouldn't be so dominant an issue.

I am dehydrated most of the time. I now have a stomach issue, likely the return of my ulcer thanks to medicine. I drink milk and the pain subsides. That is what I did when my ulcer developed 14 years ago. I have had off and on pain there in the time in between but never daily nausea and throat burn.

I suppose I will have to see the doctor about that. I need a new doctor. Don't quite know what my insurance will cover. It's been good to me so I shouldn't complain about it.

Only the living have these problems.

One thing about Arthelius is, he's spectral. That would be great, wouldn't it? What else is a ghost other than spectral?