Maybe I said something on fb I shouldn't have. I was upset, happens often here. I was working on my old pc and not connected and my cousins panicked. They never answered anything before.
Why am I Ar-Ghost? I am a ghost, I go somewhere rarely and I stay in here all the time. I can't enjoy my music and I had a story to write but can't when I am upset.
I stood out in the rain for 2 hours. I just felt.... the 2nd time in my life the LCSO has come out here to check on me. Having a deputy tell me that I need to go to people who did not help me before.
It is my fault, the causality lies with me. I will not make any further errors. I will be right here and wait for my purchases to come.
I want to not feel stress or anxiety for 1 day.
I am not well, I know this. I am sorry to have worried any one.
And yes, to repeat, my MeUndies subscription was canceled in October. I did order some new ones for the first time since August. But only what I asked for to begin with.
I am not going to stop doing the things that help me manage my daily anxiety.
I am sorry to be trouble to anyone.
Showing posts with label mistake. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mistake. Show all posts
Friday, December 5, 2014
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Important?
I am super upset. This can cross into suicidal feeling if made worse. Why? I mean, I'm not hungry.
No, okay, several months ago, the power switch of my playstation 2 went bad. Fell apart really. Couldn't turn it on. I mainly use it to play my ps1 and ps2 games. I don't like the ps3 and wish I never got one.
So, when I could afford it, I ordered a used one, knowing the risk in such a venture. It came in forthwith fashion and I loaded the Final Fantasy 12 disc in it.
Nothing happened. I checked everything that I know to see if it worked and it did not, the disc motor is bad.
So maybe I could use my otherwise undamaged ps2 to fix it. That did not work. They are different product generations and incompatible.
I sliced my thumb on a sharp piece of plastic while working on them and gave up. Now I took it apart. I can't send it back.
I am a fool. I should have never done that. Now I will have to order a new one when I can afford it but I have things to renew in October. I have already taken care of KMT which is the most expensive magazine I subscribe to. I have to renew Analog and Penthouse.
Also Norton 360 is coming up. NEED it.
I staggered these so they would not come all at the same time.
I am having body trouble. I am having difficulty peeing. While this is not unusual for me, it is worse than usual. It could be related to the upset I feel, causing body stress on my prostate. How it got damaged in the first place.
I don't understand how I could fuck up so badly. You would think at my age, I would know better.
I will be here but really, would it truly matter to you if I wasn't?
No, okay, several months ago, the power switch of my playstation 2 went bad. Fell apart really. Couldn't turn it on. I mainly use it to play my ps1 and ps2 games. I don't like the ps3 and wish I never got one.
So, when I could afford it, I ordered a used one, knowing the risk in such a venture. It came in forthwith fashion and I loaded the Final Fantasy 12 disc in it.
Nothing happened. I checked everything that I know to see if it worked and it did not, the disc motor is bad.
So maybe I could use my otherwise undamaged ps2 to fix it. That did not work. They are different product generations and incompatible.
I sliced my thumb on a sharp piece of plastic while working on them and gave up. Now I took it apart. I can't send it back.
I am a fool. I should have never done that. Now I will have to order a new one when I can afford it but I have things to renew in October. I have already taken care of KMT which is the most expensive magazine I subscribe to. I have to renew Analog and Penthouse.
Also Norton 360 is coming up. NEED it.
I staggered these so they would not come all at the same time.
I am having body trouble. I am having difficulty peeing. While this is not unusual for me, it is worse than usual. It could be related to the upset I feel, causing body stress on my prostate. How it got damaged in the first place.
I don't understand how I could fuck up so badly. You would think at my age, I would know better.
I will be here but really, would it truly matter to you if I wasn't?
Monday, August 4, 2014
Trouble
Every month, I pay Directv an inordinate amount of money. It is my responsibility here. Okay, that's how it is, has been for a long time now. I deal with it.
But last time...
Understand, my old debit card was destroyed. I had to get a new one, a completely different number and everything. So I inputted the new card and deleted the old. At first, the stupid over-complicated website said it did not take. I re-entered it and then checked my balance sheet, oops. It DID take.
I paid the same bill twice.
I am on a fixed income. I cannot deal with an inordinate amount of money being missing from my balance. What is the deal? Can't they just refund the overpayment?
This is stressing me to the max.
I don't know but will killing myself solve this problem? Don't need the money then.
No, this should smooth out and be taken care of. You know banks move at a glacial pace.
Ants on my bed! What the fuck? I think I got them all. I don't have many bites from them, despite being sweaty which draws insects because of salt and other things in sweat.
Should I post pictures of my ant bites? How about the two on my scrotum? I am sick of this! It grinds on my anxiety as bad as this budget mistake.
I don't know what will happen. If this settles favorably, I will have a nice chicken dinner, which is always a good thing.
If not, I told you about the dark place. If you like or love me, please pray for me.
But last time...
Understand, my old debit card was destroyed. I had to get a new one, a completely different number and everything. So I inputted the new card and deleted the old. At first, the stupid over-complicated website said it did not take. I re-entered it and then checked my balance sheet, oops. It DID take.
I paid the same bill twice.
I am on a fixed income. I cannot deal with an inordinate amount of money being missing from my balance. What is the deal? Can't they just refund the overpayment?
This is stressing me to the max.
I don't know but will killing myself solve this problem? Don't need the money then.
No, this should smooth out and be taken care of. You know banks move at a glacial pace.
Ants on my bed! What the fuck? I think I got them all. I don't have many bites from them, despite being sweaty which draws insects because of salt and other things in sweat.
Should I post pictures of my ant bites? How about the two on my scrotum? I am sick of this! It grinds on my anxiety as bad as this budget mistake.
I don't know what will happen. If this settles favorably, I will have a nice chicken dinner, which is always a good thing.
If not, I told you about the dark place. If you like or love me, please pray for me.