Sleep

For some reason, ever since I was a child, I have always needed to sleep like 10 hours at night. This did not change in my nocturnal schedule between ages 17 and 33. I guess I have a mental slowness or else my brain takes a long time to process and collimate information. It could be because of my high metabolism, which has slowed in the last few years, or because I am as some say, a sickly person.

I have slept on the same bed for like 20 years. It is now threadbare and springs poke me in the ribs when I sleep. I have not been able to afford a new one for a long time. I sleep on a twin size bed and would not have sex in my bed because it would be uncomfortable to the female.

There's really no privacy here anyway and the only privacy I really need is in the bathroom or while doing the m-thing.

When I sleep, I wear a t-shirt usually only meant to be worn at night, like those with art or printing on them. I wear solid colors, usually gray, when going out. I wear sweatpants and socks, too. That has a lot to do with the environment in which I live but I also feel uncomfortable laying down in my underwear. I wish I could wear underwear all other times but I wear briefs and that really doesn't hide anything.

Some might think this is too much to wear to sleep but I am used to it.

I have always wanted a place of my own, where I could sleep when I wanted. That doesn't seem likely but when I do actually get another job, I will seriously try for it.

I take Celexa's generic incarnation, citalopram-hydrobromide, for my anxiety problems. I reduced my prescribed dosage of 40 mg a day to 20 mg a day because I can't afford the $4 of my medicine often. My mom has to get it for me. That is sad.

Celexa makes me sleepy. It makes me bloated a little. It also has a strange effect on my sexuality, delay. I can delay as long as possible. I should be in porn, lol.

Reducing dosage has:

1. Intensified my panic-attack prone anxiety when leaving the house.
2. Altered my sleep patterns.
3. Made things seem pointless. I don't react quickly to things.

I have strange dreams, last night I was at a NHRA drag race. WTF? I don't like drag racing and would never gone and have never been to one.

The blonde woman from NY who has been in my dreams since I was a teenager shows up sometimes. I do not know who she is. I have never met her.

Jen shows up sometimes. That is painful. I still love her in some piece of my heart.

I have constant er.... when I sleep. If I wake up too soon, I can't get up until it subsides. Could be embarrassing. I thought that went away as I got older, it did not.

I cannot sleep without my radio. This has been true for 30 years. If the radio station goes off or stops playing music, I will wake up. I listen to the Fox (www.1073rocks.com) all the time.

Yes, the music affects my dreams too. I am not given to many sexual dreams but it happens every once and a while.

I do not sleep well when it is too warm. I cannot stand to be cold but in cold weather, I have many blankets and layer. I must have a pillow between my legs, which helps my prostate by spreading them and reducing pressure on the middle of my pelvic area.

BTW, seeing your pelvis on a CT scan is cool. Mine is sharply narrow, a male trait.

I don't remember seeing much else on the CT scan, you know, X-Rays go right through soft tissue. The contast fluid I had to drink, eww, imagine yogurt and spoiled milk well blended and that is what it tasted like. I hope I never have to drink it again.

Back on-topic, sleeping is nice when I can do it. I can initiate sleep by taking my med. It strikes quickly. That was a problem at walmart when I wasn't busy. I would get sleepy. It fades as my med wears off.

I would have to restore my dosage when I get a new job, perhaps even alter the times I take it, usually 12 hours apart. No telling what the effect will be.

I used to couldn't sleep during a t-storm. I hate thunderstorms. They worry/scare me. Now, it doesn't really affect me unless the weather radio goes off. That thing's beep is really loud.

I usually sleep now from 3am to 11am now. I sometimes wake up after 1pm.

I miss a lot that way. No one misses me.