Tired of Shave Pictures?

I don't like facial hair. It has been graying for like 7 years now. It is mostly gray near the mouth and chin, darker on cheeks and throat.

I am not going to take a picture  of me with it so do not ask.

I shaved my parts two days ago but my face today. I cannot post those parts check photos, prudes and all, so I will post this.

I hate shaving as much as I hate being male in the first place. But it has to be done for self-image, comfort, and not looking like my dad so much.

I wonder if I did have my parts removed, if facial hair would stop growing. A mentally sound person doesn't wonder such things but I am not mentally sound with anxiety disorder coiled around my soul like concertina wire.

Maleness causes anxiety. Well, to be truthful, a lot of things do, breathing can cause it even. But maybe you like me as I am. I wish someone would post a comment and say so.

Oh, and about my hair. I wash it at 3 am or so every night. I woke up with this hair and kind of like it. I don't know if that affects my appeal. I wish someone would tell me.

Appeal

You may or may not know that I subscribe to PH (Penthouse). I have for several years actually. Occasionally, they come up with an absolutely beautiful female pictorial.

What makes a female beautiful? All of them have breasts and a kitty, which ranges from cute to hideous. That really is not her fault no more is it your fault that you have a hideous hydraulic appendage that pokes out from your body in an obvious way.

To me, beauty is in her eyes, her face. Delicate, gracile, a charm she naturally has. Note that not every girl is beautiful in this way. It is every once in a while when an exception appears.

This is the March 14 issue of PH, she is on the cover, runner up to the 'Pet of the Year'. I voted for her last year because she was beautiful then and is now.

I will not post a picture of her (copyright and all that) and really, what I consider beautiful may not be what you do.

That is not to say that I don't like her body. I like smaller, natural assets. A female with massive breasts can be grotesque. 

Hips are also a beautiful thing. Of course, that is the morphology of her pelvis.

I have seen my pelvis on a CT scan. It is like a large cup where a female's is like a bowl.

I am attracted to blonde females, I mean, Jen is blonde.

But girls are willful and cruel creatures and sometimes it doesn't work out.

It is okay to appreciate her appeal.

If I saw her in real life, oh gosh, have you ever seen the scene in Final Fantasy IX where Alexander closes his wings around the castle? My anxiety feathers would do the same thing. Avoidance.