Lab Rat

I signed up for a Low T (testosterone) study. 

Some years ago, I went to Austin for a prediabetes exam. I did not have it but they discovered a rather low T level. 

I know some things about me have become apparent. No, it's not my ever-worse anxiety disorder or hypertension. It's my ability to do some things.

It's not nice to talk about some things but they are male things. I am not different from other males. It is just I am mentally sick and that is the difference.

I go on thursday to see if I can be part of this study. If so,  may have an improvement. If not, well. I'm usually superfluous as a human being. This may be no different. 

I will share my  experience with this. 

Maybe by then my mom will be out of the hospital. But the fear is ever-more there.  

Something Wrong

I seem to be developing an itchy rash all over me. It is worse on my left leg in the region of my knee. I can't say what is causing this since I spend a lot of time in my underwear and don't go outside.


My sister told me it is a heat rash but what is that really? I have heard of this before. I took a picture of it but I don't think it turned out good. I will take another later.

I don't know what is going on. I don't need this physical problem added to the mental problems I have.

I am itching on my right arm and my neck as well. What is going on? Curse this summer. When will it end?