Fear Lesson

My mom is still in the hospital. The prognosis is good, I was told. 

So, that's almost a week that she has been away. In this time, I have felt very bad. Not only is it a bereft feeling. It borders on feeling useless. 

Ordinarily, I help my mom. I am busy but now its like it doesn't matter.

My mom suffered a reaction to a medicine she was taking. This pneumonia was part of that. I do not understand this but I am not a doctor.

She will return eventually. In  what state, I cannot say.

This time now. My elder life will be like this.

I just cannot deal with that.