Ar-Ghost

I am Ar-Ghost, Arthelius-Ghost. Why? I thought that sounded cool, Roman sounding name. It came from a playful conversation between me and my ex-girlfriend, a long time ago now.

Who is Ar-Ghost? He is an aging white guy from Cen Tx. He is stricken with severe anxiety disorder and has strong agoraphobia.

Doesn't go outside if he doesn't have to. Doesn't go anywhere other than the store and to the lavandiera.

He feels self-conscious about his belly, his teeth. He has strong misandry, doesn't even like his own maleness.

He can get depressed. It has happened before. Got pretty dark there sometimes. But appeal brings it a new way to feel. Appeal could be anything. For Ar-Ghost, it's underwear. He has bought underwear from many places, seeing what's more comfortable.

He likes MeUndies. Anyone who has worn a pair would. He is wearing some now.

He is mulling buying a 5-pack though that is a pretty large hit to his budget.

He has urinary system problems and tends to have accidents. This has to do with his stress-damaged prostate gland. It always hurts to some degree.

Ar-Ghost has been sick for the last week with an upper respiratory infection. He is getting better after a thoroughly unpleasant time.

He tries not to feel anxiety, tunes out. Listened to Jimmy Somerville today. That's not an everyday thing. Ar-Ghost likes 80s music. He was a kid in the 80s and kinda missed some of it.

Ar-Ghost stayed up yesterday to watch a rocket launch that was scrubbed. He is not young anymore, he is three seasons away from 40.

Ar-Ghost fears his elder life.

But aside from writing about myself in the 3rd person, I will tell you this.

I am Gregory and I am still here.