Possibility

I told you that it was not certain that I would always be lonely. It could happen at any time. I have reservations though and this may be just nothing.

I met a girl who is beautiful and smart. She likes me though I cannot see why. She doesn't know my problems. She doesn't know the last 15 years of so of soul-strangling anxiety. She doesn't know about the time alone. 

Better sense tells me to leave it alone. My anxiety feathers are in a tumult over this. 

I don't want to upset anyone and this girl can easily become panic bait. 

What happened to the days when I was positive?