Reasons

I have suicidal feelings. It is important to learn some things about me:

I have always intended that when my mom was gone, Id be too. It's been nearly 3 years since. Why am I still here?

I am alone here since my sister left. I do not know if I will ever see her again. Alone is bad, my anxiety is worse and I can't do anything. 

My SS benefit is too small for everything so food suffers. I have lost over 14 lbs and I am constantly hungry, tend to overeat. 

The torn labrum in my right hip will never heal. It hurts constantly and yet, I can still walk but it's getting harder. 

I cannot pay my bills because of a sent check is in fedex's hands and they are slow. 

I have anxiety disorder and agoraphobia. They will be the death of me if I don't choose to end it first. 

I have no intention of ending my life but if the feeling gets worse, may cross a line from which there is no return.