Hurting More

I have been hurting more. I am 40 now and I guess it doesn't matter.

What does 40 mean? Getting old? Does it mean nothing but another year?

I hurt in my prostate area as usual. I don't go to the doctor as I have medicare and it doesnt cover prostate exams until age 50.

Also, a doctor sticking his finger in my booty is not a desirable thing at all. That is the best way to see if the prostate gland is swollen as mine is sometimes. Pressing on it is a kind of agony. Causes one to wet themselves too. 

I have come to despise my male parts. My left testicle is often swollen too, it's all connected. I don't know what this means. It causes my scrotum to be heart shaped, though I will share that a picture of that only on request.

Would I seriously have my male parts removed? If I was wealthy, it would have already been done but I am not so I am stuck with it. 

Does a penis define a male?

Something has to.  

I'll post a picture of mine if anyone asks.